Unfortunately it’s what I have felt/actually done like the past few weeks. We aren’t complete masters of our emotions nor will we ever be. Can’t be helped that way. I actually have what I’d like to say are a good amount of hobbies, so that wouldn’t be an issue.Might I suggest hobbies? Some prefer drinking. Some even call it a hobby. Don't go too far less it becomes a "problem." But a groan in one's soul? audible sigh? Surely there is better use of one's precious emotion.