Who are you dude?unironically i hope u can get to where you want to be. sometimes just a couple small steps in the right direction can be a big help. its never too late to start making progress
why do u think that saying an unpopular opinion on aoezone is incompatible with identifying when someone needs helpWho are you dude?
Sorry if I came off that way. It’s just given your history of certain things and that you were the first to say something nice in a topic that was being taken as mostly as what looked like joke, was both extremely surprising and refreshing. I thought of it too, but sent a pm instead.why do u think that saying an unpopular opinion on aoezone is incompatible with identifying when someone needs help
So, ingame wall or a real wall? You know what I mean.For those out of the loop, there was a hole
What you need is help. Professional help. I'm not trolling or being a douche here, quite the contrary. It's never late to seek out a psychologist or a psychiatrist, or whatever works for you (meditation, ayahuasca rituals, literally whatever). You have parents that, judging by their tolerance of your past misdeeds, support you. Talk to them, too, if not for counsel at least to keep them in the loop so they can try to help you in any way. Not that long ago I lost a dear friend from the AoE community to suicide and what I found perhaps most heartbreaking of all is the fact that not only did the family not expect it, but the father blamed himself for not having seen the signs. Being a parent is harder than it looks, they don't have all the answers, and what's even more tragic, they often don't have the questions.IF YOU have watched my stream you know what I am talking about! My entire goal to not be tilted and insulting is over and gone and down the drain and I failed once again, ******* obviously because I can never make good on any of my promises. I will forever be a little spoiled brat who turns into the most insufferable little moooop whenever I lose elo. Now I will not apologize again because clearly it is useless because sorry means I will try not to do it again and clearly I do not put in the necessary effort required. Oh tocaraca always says be nice and be the bigger man and be mature, but he doesn't actually do any of these things himself, what a ****ing rdengenerate! 11111111111111111 SO TELL ME! should I delete my account?> you know, I'm so self-aware that I have total control over my actions right now and could not post this if I wanted to be smart and mature, but I don't feel like doing that, because I'm a psychotic sociopathic little greech... but you already knew that! if you are part of the Latin community and you like me and you like my rages and you like my username and my accent, well I'm here to tell you that your like is misplaced, because I am a terrible subhuman and honestly some of you guys should just hire assassins to eliminate me from existence. after all, I don't even have a job, I cried about nobody subscribing because I need the moneyb ecause I'm such a ****ing idiotic moronic piece of rancid putrid excrement that I don't feel like getting a job because 'oH iDoNt hAve mY DriVerS lIScENCe YEt" like f*** haahahahahahahahahahha 1111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111
why do u think that saying an unpopular opinion on aoezone is incompatible with identifying when someone needs help
First off, I’m sorry for your loss. I thought I’d lose a friend of mine in this community to suicide during our teenage years. He went very dark in some ways but got out of it thankfully.What you need is help. Professional help. I'm not trolling or being a douche here, quite the contrary. It's never late to seek out a psychologist or a psychiatrist, or whatever works for you (meditation, ayahuasca rituals, literally whatever). You have parents that, judging by their tolerance of your past misdeeds, support you. Talk to them, too, if not for counsel at least to keep them in the loop so they can try to help you in any way. Not that long ago I lost a dear friend from the AoE community to suicide and what I found perhaps most heartbreaking of all is the fact that not only did the family not expect it, but the father blamed himself for not having seen the signs. Being a parent is harder than it looks, they don't have all the answers, and what's even more tragic, they often don't have the questions.
And to answer your question: there's no need to delete everything, but do take a break, and make it a permanent one if it need be. No game should lead to this sort of meltdown, and if it does it's because you're way too invested into it and it will take a toll on you that no person should pay. You're young and you're wasting lots of time and effort that you'll never get back, and you're not even getting any enjoyment out of it. I'm no doctor, but I would prescribe a break if I were.
attention seeker much?because I am a terrible subhuman and honestly some of you guys should just hire assassins to eliminate me from existence
Agree. Just switch to playing nomad team game (the real essence of aoe) only and you will live happily ever afterI quit 1v1s a long time ago and I am happier in life because I don't need to tilt or blame my enemy for civ picking. It's just a frustration that I developed because I was never showing improvement in rating.
You will just be fine if you quit the game. Don't think too much and start playing ge game casually. It's not useful when you play game too serious that it affects your brain.